Friday, June 30, 2006
Today was youth day! Was not bad except for the stupid lessons part. My class tee was sooo damn big ok! Hah. Went sch kinda early and I asked zan to help me put the stuff. Sheesh.
Then had lessons, recess and concert.
Concert was funny! Hahah!
Choy actually performed! Lol. The guy singing "rooftop" in the white pajamas!!!
Haha! I cheered and laughed so much till my throat hurts so badly now.
Then the kartinie and muthi part was damn hilarious!! Lol!!!
Haha
I don't have much to say now.
I keep being depressed and un-depressed (?) haha!
I dunno what im talking bout. Tata!
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5:27 AM
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Gosh! I miss my tablet like hell! *hugs tablet*
Haha. sum says I should stop abusing it and take better care of it.
I think my tablet's like in the worst condition among all the sec2s. hah.
Anyways, I have a few things to talk about.
Firstly, I should try to put in more effort in my posts. Cause most of them are lousy and like...meaningless. Haha. hannah's blog influenced me so much.
Hah. But not many ppl read my blog so I can open up my thoughts more freely.
Let's start. I dunno how to describe the state im in now. Depressed? Upset? I dunno. But like yeah! Pfffftttt. Stupid HANIZAH made me so DOWN. Oh. I just remember she is down after all. And a lot of other stupid things are just adding to the pressure. Like stupid loser nisa. And my mum who is also a loser like nisa. My appetite has been so down lately and I've been feeling thirsty all the time. Also, my hair is falling so much I think im gonna go bald soon. Sighsigh.
Im confused! Gahhh! =( im really depending on you now dear rachie. If you read the post that I wrote the other time, you know what I mean.
Oh. and I saw sarina yest. As in not saw from far or smth. I always see her from far. We walked past by each other when I was going mly class, she went out from class. Then I think I blushed. Gosh. And she's making this funny funny (or rather, disgusted =/) face but I find it rather cute. =)) ok. At least that's a good one.
I also realized how much my friends mean to me. And joyce can't transfer!! I don't want her to! I know she CAN cope if everyone around her helps her. Im such a lousy friend really. I don't know how to console or give her advices when she always has been doing so to me. But then if she does transfer I would be soooo sad and more depressed! Gah! Im really thankful to all my friends, esp joyce, sum, zan and dada. And of course, not forgetting dearest rachie and liy. I cant say it in words at all. =))) they are there for me 24/7, they always make me feel like I belong, and they are always true to themselves and never ashamed of making mistakes. =)))
Ok. On a brighter note, its youth day this fri! =) sort of looking forward to it cause hopefully it will be a nice one. I still dunno what to get that stupidstupid Hanizah. Im not the unappreciative type OK. Oh. and sum says that today, I have been repeating nearly all the words that I wanna say and emphasize on. Like "stupid stupid", "silly silly", "hot hot", "cute cute" and so on la.
Sad news. The sec4s are leaving soon! Haha.ok. like duh right. But I don't want! Last yr's sec4 alr leave and the sch feels wrong without them la.
Also, im more into this yr's sec4 so them leaving will be just too weird to be true! I bet I will cry a whole river when they are gonna leave man. X( ok. Now im saying this my eyes are alr teary. =/
Rachie says "love can change the world"/ (world makes the world goes round). How true can it be. Love can change MY world. Now I really knows how liyana feels. Pity her loads. =(
And freaky online guys totally freak me and Ashley out. Hah.
Anyways, don't think these ppl im gonna talk about now will be reading this but yeah. Really thankful to sab, hanna and siti for giving me another chance. I may still not be the girl you guys used to know but I'll try my best to change.
Gosh. Suddenly remind me of smth! Now my eyes are tearing agn!
Continuation...
~I dunno why im debating with myself over this. It cant be true. IT JUST CANT. But yes, what can I do. I have to accept the fact and face the truth. *a's the one I've been looking for, a godsend. Ok. Im prepared for a heartbreak. But I know rachie's right. As long as *a is happy I should be happy too. but I have to face another fact, im not happy.~
ok. So that's my latest confession, and the last one I've kept. (maybe except for the stupid p2 incident. =/ )So all those talk about *a boils down to this. Ok. Now you can see why im very confused. Damn. Shouldn't have all those stupid talks with ahemahem. Im off to do some soul-searching now. Tata.
Lots of love,
Hanisah
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5:35 AM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
im feeling as depressed as rachel is feeling right now!!
=(((
sad sad
that stupid *ahmeahem* la!
screw her! D=
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5:41 AM
Sunday, June 25, 2006
I dunno why but what I miss most about my sec1 days is being in track.
It's a bit weird but yeah.
I miss doing our warm-ups with all the 6 goners and cheating. =p
I miss samat's yelling and shouting at us to run/jog and not walk.
I miss doing the stretches at the stands.
I miss the smell of queenstown stadium, the stands and the field.
I miss those torturous runs. Weird.
I miss those times when we would escape to the toilet and stay there for a very long time so as to skip some really bad practices. =p
I miss the times when it would be raining so heavily that we cant have practice and we would be rejoicing.
I miss the workouts in school a lot.
I miss the sound of samat's whistle and when we would all be running together.
I miss the times when we would hang out at shell after practice and eat ice cream.
Of course, I miss the people there most.
I miss samat's encouragement and funny voice.
I miss the seniors too.
I miss the sec4 05 coming down to see us train and pushing us hard, esp Bernice.
I miss the sec2 05.
I miss wai teng jie and those times running together in a group when she would always be encouraging us.
I miss carren as she was always the fast and stern one in the group.
I miss denise jie too when we sometimes run together and chat at the same time!
I miss felissa's shouting and harsh voice. Heh.
And also I miss Felicia trying so desperately to take our attendance as we would always be all over the place. Hee.
Of course the sec2s are still the best.
I miss cui ting's hello every time we face each other. Hah.
I miss ying min's "blurness". Hoho!
I miss slacking in long-d with val and sin ying.
I miss sticking with val all the time.
I miss sin ying's silliness like wearing a wind breaker while running. Lol!
I miss running with cindy too back then when she was in long-d.
I miss sandra's sweet smile and shyness even though now she’s no longer in crescent.
I miss aida's sour face and grumpiness whenever samat told us to do a lot of running. Hah
I miss always trying to catch up with aisyah.
I miss mira's and siti's great "enthusiasm". Hee.
I miss mel's friendliness, laughter and jokes.
I miss the times when I would always get ying min's and hui wei's name mixed up.
I miss annabel's cute voice when we talk.
I miss going to queenstown with kay and celeste.
I miss all those fun talks with kay.
I miss niki's whining and grumbling all the time.
I miss looking at the seniors run so fast like the wind.
I miss Linda being so carefree at one time and suddenly so serious at another.
I miss cheryl's and jolena's gang making a lot of noise.
I miss Joanne being nice to us yet stern.
I miss the way Louisa seems so slack but she can very fast.
I miss getting Louisa and shu xian mixed up. Haha.
I miss the look on yen fang's face after she run, all red and flushed up.
I miss sonia's cuteness and claire's sheepish smile!
I miss eswari's never-give-up attitude and running together back when I was in the sprinting team.
I miss all those fun games that we had sometimes.
I miss the sec3s 05 teaching us a lot of stuff.
I miss doing the funny horse thingy. Haha!
I miss qixin too cause she was so patient teaching us when niki and me couldn't get the thing right.
I miss the times when we had to run in the rain/drizzle. It was so nice!
I miss those mornings when we had to go to MacRitchie for training.
I miss working together as a team, esp during baton-passing where everyone matters.
I just miss the whole feeling of being in track!
I just realized how much track meant to me back then, just that I never realized it.
Its hard to believe but I really love it.
Its like all of us are just one whole family, no matter how good you can run or how slow you are.
No one is being looked down on and all of us are given chances to shine!
People there are never biased and they are so understanding.
Heartx em loads. =)))
If I had one wish, I would love to go back to my sec one days.
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6:08 AM
I've learnt Swahili!
Ok, maybe not a lot but still sufficient enough for me to go to Uganda now. =) I shall pull hnz along with me too I don't care.
Anyways, dada is sister.
So now, I wont call my jiee "jiee" anymore.
Shall call her dada! =)
Nice one since her name is amanDADA! Haha!
Sunday went shopping in town! =))
Grandpa gave me this lovely bag! =)))
Was fun since it's the great Singapore sale!
Monday, did nothing much at home. Just slacked a lot.
Tuesday had lit meeting and pbl.
Lit was kinda productive I guess cause we just need to draw and make the animations. For pbl, we are totally going nowhere.
And the project is due in 2 weeks. How great. =/
Anyways, after pbl, I actually went out alone. =)
Never realized how nice it could be.
Went far east for some stuff. Then took bus and went lot one there. Hee.
Got some more stuff then went home. =)
Wednesday was very nice I guess.
Had math camp, not bad after all except for that gek teacher who went so slowly at the first part and rushing everything at the end. =/
Then went causeway to go watch Garfield 2! Was very cute and funny! xD
Loved it. Then I ate sooo much ok.
At around 1.30 when I arrived ate at macs.
Then for the movie had one medium drink, popcorn and chix. Was yummy! Haha!
Then after that went around for awhile looking and getting more stuff.
Then ate at pizza! Like wth I think im so fat alr la.
But it was very nice la. =))
And haziq was totally being a gentleman! xD haha! he's adorable anyway. =p
Oh. and I found out something SHOCKING from fad today! Was like "ARE YOU SURE?! WTH!!"
Haha!. guess what it is and who it has got to do with. =)
Anyways, Thursday had math camp again.
The lesson part was so so lah. Had to rack my brains a lot of times on how to do the stupid sums.
Then after break ms lau told us that cikgu wanted us to go for angklung instead. We had to miss out on problem-solving lessons. X(
So we went for angklung and its kinda ok la.
Just that I never seem to enter into the first note correctly.
Always a bit fast or a bit slow. But luckily Aisyah always covers up. =p
Then we went home LOR.
Hah.
Then firday went to sch early in the morn for the stupid math test.
Like wth. I dunno a few questions cause I missed the last impt lesson.
Then after that hang out at cheers as usual and saw rachie! (and the rest)
Gosh. Miss her so much and she's grown so much taller now!
Then went for angklung. Ms asmah didn't come so aisyah conducted.
Was ok la wasn't stressing.
Then afters we arranged the angklungs! Haha. didn't know it could be much more fun than playing angklung. =)
Then went canteen and saw sab in her GEEKY specs. Lol.
Then had lit. met joyce and dada!
I missss her loads! Anyways, she was telling us about japan and showing us the pics that jingli took. Was lovely. Damn, should have gone man.
Then had lit but did nth much. I was doing my own stuff. =p
Anyways, sec2s out there, dunno if you know bout this but you can actually surf the net freely with the sch’s wireless! =D
Go to
http://anonymouse.org then just go to whatever website you want including blogs and friendster and they didn’t block!
And for msn, just go to
http://hopster.com and they will bypass the firewall or smth like that la. Cool I just found out. Haha. =)
Then don't rmb much. Went to 7-11. dada and me ate cup noodles. Yumyum!
And I accidentally knocked dada's elbow and a bit of the soup fell onto her skirt. Oops!
Anyways, after that went to grandma's house.
I found out my aunt's baby died in her womb.
Sadsad. I thought that I was going to get another cute cousin.
Then both my little cousins got so amazed by my stationeries. Haha!
Nini kept doing all kinds of stuff to my eraser, the tube one those kind, and correction tape.
She even lost the the eraser in the tube thing!
And Danish kept clicking open and close my pen and started drawing.
Haha. love em.
Then went home... oh. and got this freaky woman in the lrt who kept staring at me from head to toe! Yikes!
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5:51 AM
Monday, June 19, 2006
urgh
im so friggin pissed.
i dunno what to do
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6:04 AM
dad's here behind me now
but not looking la =)
that stupid hanizah pulled my mood down
stuppid dumdumdumdum
anyways, shall look on the brighter side.
gone=no worries!
tralala~ =)
i love hanizah!!!someone tell me its not true
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5:47 AM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
hah
read smth at liy's blog
about ALCOHOL
hmm. interesting
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7:15 AM
i dunno what to say now
im feeling so BLEAH
i dont wanna be a cry baby anymore! x(
anyways, really appreciate liyana's help
THANKS SO MUCH LIYANA!!! HEARTX YOU!haha. felt much better now =)
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7:03 AM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
sunday went sentosa like again.
cant be bothered to blog about it actually. =/ next time maybe.
sunday I only rmb going to jb! Was nice! Hee.
Went to this new shopping mall and I love it loads! Though the stuff are like more ex than the ones in Singapore.
The roxy stuff there are damn nice but its like very ex there la!
And got a lot more nice nice shops too. =)
Then ate and I ate a lot of yummy sushi! Yumms!
Eh. Ok. Actually I don't rmb much happening. Ya.
That's about it I guess.
Today was so stupid! I was so mooooooody the whole day.
Mum triggered off my bad mood when we gonna go out that time alr.
Then went arab st with cousins they all.
And I was like so friggin pissed with all my stupid little cousins la!
Anyhow just touch and use and play my phone! Idiots,
Anyways, I was frowning a lot so it isnt really enjoyable.
oh! and i saw Isadora!!!!
Me, her and amira.
we were best friends in kindergarten. =D
And I love those old days. =)))
And saw insane nadia too. um. Ya. Basically that's it. =)
xHANISAHx
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5:26 AM
Shall blog about yest. It was better than expected. =)
Went there with sum and cant believe we reached there so early. 9.30! when we were supp to meet at 10.15
Then around 9.45 called hanna to join us at macs cause she was alone and early too.
She then came with aisyah. Ms yeo came too. =)
Then we met up with the rest at harbourfront mrt and waited for pratz!! Haha! gosh. Feel like I haven't seen her for YEARS and she's grown so tall she's around my height now! Wow. I wonder what her parents feed her in India.
Oh. sadly, my jiee didn't come. =((( cause all the koyo girls were tired and just came back.
Only joyce came and she gave me this sweet thing for my bday. =)))
Went to sentosa and walked a lot just deciding where to have the picnic at.
And we finally settled and cut up the cake. Not many ppl came only arnd 20. sad eh. And there's like 2 whole cakes. So its kinda wasted.
Then I rmb playing games and bathing a lot. The treasure hunt was fun. =)
Oh. and I bought these really cute pens too! ohwell. Ben says it's a waste of money but its so cute I cant resist the temptation of buying it! Haha.
Then its most of them didn't bring extra towel and undergarments. Haha.
Like how silly. But that includes me too. =/
Oh! and during the passing game that one, I was unlucky and got the thing la. =/
Then guess what. The dare was to kiss the cheek of the person on my right, which is MS YEO! HAHA! LYDIA'S LOOK-A-LIKE. loll
Then when we wanna go home like all of us were half-dead.
Reached home around nine? Yeah.
And the moment I stepped into my house, mum was alr nagging bout my phone bills. =(
Oh ya. And the poem I sent in actually came out! Haha. like how sweet.
Ohk. Im going off now. Buaix.
xHANISAHx
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5:23 AM
Thursday, June 08, 2006
how am i suppose to leave you
i cant believe what i just gave away
oh no
cause i cant take it back
im lost
i dont want to leave my life without you
but i guess everything's over now.
tell me how sweet this is! haha.
got it from zakk's blog. still in my blog hopping mood. hee.
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3:00 AM
,beach guard. said:
OMG YOU SAW ZAKK?!
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care said:
haha!
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care said:
yupp
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care said:
in the lrt
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care said:
luck? lol
,beach guard. says:
haha she's gg to sch isit?
,beach guard. says:
OMG PHEW AT LEAST I KNOW SHE'S NOT DEAD.
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
no. coming home
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
haha!,beach guard. says:
er how come coming home?
,beach guard. says:
OH NO WONDER!
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
haha. you know we should have taken a few trains later then you can see her right
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
hee
,beach guard. says:
i saw some sec3s just now, wanted t wait but they all want to leave/:
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
ooh,beach guard. says:
aha duhduhduh!
,beach guard. says:
haha okay i think she have lessons.
,beach guard. says:
but nah nvm lady luck not on me today.
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
i was like so shocked and i nearly laughed. like how stupid. =/ haha
,beach guard. says:
shall try again next time!
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
lol!
,beach guard. says:
HAHAHA did she see you?
,beach guard. says:
DID SHE CUT HER HAIR?! no right.
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
er
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
i dunno leh. she still tie her hair
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
yuppi was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
she saw me
,beach guard. says:
haha okay heng.
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
and you know when she wanna get up that time right, she like jumped out of her seat, then effortlessly swing her bag onto her shoulders and just coolly walk out
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
lol
,beach guard. says:
woah so cool ;D
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
ok. maybe im exaggerating a bit on the description but yeah, you have the idea
,beach guard. says:
AHAHA yesyes i know, i've seen her done before!
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
oh. coolly walk out with that dao look on her face. haha!
,beach guard. says:
OMG I KNOW SHE VERY DAO/:
,beach guard. says:
/:/:/:/;
i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
haha
,beach guard. says:
she dao me can!!
,beach guard. says:
):i was born too late, to a world that doesn't care says:
but she really looks so cool!
haha. go read i think its very funny! hee. and yea wont post up the rest of the convo kinda private *winks haha.
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2:27 AM
1# amanda!
2# joyce!
3# sum!
4# zan!
5# sab!
6# siti!
7# hanna!
8# aida!
9# rachel!
10# ashley!
11# ros!
12# zanita!
13# farz!
14# fareha!
15# indah!
16# farisa!
17# elsa!
18# liyana!
19# um. i dunno who else. hanizah?
20# if hanizah's name is there farrah's name is here too. =) haha.
how did you meet #14?
madrasah pri3! hee.
what would you do if you never meet #1?
my jiee?! then my life would be so boring and entertainless!
what if #9 and #20 dated?
rachel and farrah?! lol!
good idea but nah. rachiee has her L*L*NG alr la.
have you ever liked #19?
lol. yes! my ex-ec. haha!
sounds wrong.
i still like her now. she's such a sweetie. =)
would #6 and #17 make a good couple?
siti and elsa? lol. they're not that kind la.
good friends yupp.
describe #3
sum! my nicey wifey!
she's nice!!!!
became such good friends over a lost thumbdrive!
HAHA. cant describe my wifey in words cause she's too good. =)))
is #8 attractive?
aida's a hot bung-wanna-be! haha!
describe #7
hanna's a great friend who can really relate with you well.
sheesh. but she likes to keep things to herself?
dunno if thats good or bad.
but ya. she's a great person who is loved by everyone =))
do you know any of #12's family members?
ei. no. heh. just know that she has a bro. yeah.
what will you do if #18 confess to you that he/she likes you?
liyana?! haha. she has her zakkiyya too alr. good friends =)
what language does #15 speak?
ei? mly, el and minah language. loll
who is #9 going out with?
ahem! L*L*NG! haha. i dunno la. that chick's so hot. =p
how old is #16?
my kps bestie! same age as me of course la. 14
when was the last time you spoke to #13?
oh gosh! her prepaid card has finished so the last time was 2 weeks ago!
oh my! just realised how long it has been!
who is #2's favourite band/singer?
er? she dont really have any. or rather, she dont really listen to them.
would you ever date #4?
haha! she has her online hubby alr. lol
pst. she's even going to california to meet him! haha!
would you ever date #7?
haha! hanna's nice =)
if im a guy maybe yes.
is #15 single?
er. dont think so leh. i dont really know actually. hee.
call myself her best friend since p3 right. =/
what is #10's last name?
LEE! ASHLEY LEE YIN. i think. haha
would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
ros?! er. i dunno. a guy would find her cute.
but now since what happened lately, if i were a guy i would say NEXT TIME.
school of #3
Crescent?! (this whole thing is copied and pasted. cause the ans is the same. haha)
where does #6 live?
bukit panjang, senja la! haha.
if i dunno she must really strangle me la
what's your favourite thing about #5?
she's nice, sweet, very understanding
nice nice nice girl!
she has this thingy bout her which i dunno how to describe.
heartx her lots lots!
but hey. a good question for sab! =)))
HAHAHA!
got this from rachel yeo's blog. sheesh. im copying stuff from ppl's blog now that im so bored! gah!
but find it nice though. haha.
im blog hopping so much which means i just realised what a kaypo girl i am =/
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1:21 AM
ABCs to live by :)
Although things are not perfect
Because of trial or pain
Continue in thanksgiving
Do not begin to blame
Even when the times are hard
Fierce winds are bound to blow
God is forever able
Hold on to what you know
Imagine life without
His love
Joy would cease to be
Keep thanking Him for all the things
Love imparts to thee
Move out of "Camp Complaining"
No weapon that is known
On earth can yield the power
Praise can do alone
Quit looking at the future
Redeem the time at hand
Start every day with worship
To "thank" is a command
Until we see Him coming
Victorious in the sky
We'll run the race with gratitude
Xalting God most high
Yes, there'll be good times and yes some will be bad, but...
Zion waits in glory...where none are ever sad!
got this from hannah's blog. heh. somehow i like reading her posts cause all her posts are very nice to read =))
like all her posts somehow like makes me inspired and calm =)
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1:15 AM
decided to come back again.
just a short one
SORT OF looking forward to tomorrow
but not really. cause i figured it wont be so much fun la
ok. maybe a new place, sentosa. but still, ITS A BEACH ALL THE SAME.
nevermind, we can cycle around sentosa which will be fun. =)))
had angklung today
guess who i saw! *winks
the 1st 6* woman. sheesh. i guess noone knows.
anyways, had kinda intensive training just now
she really pushed us hard on the kulintangs
its like no matter how well we try to do it, we all cant seem to get in correctly at the off beat =(
but she did say my beat was correct =))
just that my rhythm was wrong =/
i look my pb!! haha.
then aft that played angklung.
was tiring. eeee. i dont want perform for that tarmugan guy or whatever his name is.
i wanna be with my pb on aad! XD
ohs. i realised that the girls will be coming back from japan today! =D
i shall go call my jiee now.
tata
xHANISAHx
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12:13 AM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
I decided to come back for awhile
To say how much I miss everyone!!! =(
Hols are such a bore when you have noone to go out with or talk to.
Or when you are always troubled by something.
Or when you don't get to see *. =(
Pitiful.
anyways, hanizah hates her. i understand. (actually i dont really. heh. nvm. not impt)
Like jiee, xuan and the rest are all in japan now. (which means I cant sms them)
I wonder what they are doing at this moment.
Nevermind. Still think that having the chance to go to Melbourne is like much much better.
And I cant really have much contact with joyce, sum and zan.
Which means no entertainment!! =(
But nevermind, sab will entertain me with paul!!! XD
Anw, I think my new phone sux. =/
Still not used to it and very troublesome.
Looking forward to class outing at sentosa! Yay!
What me and jiee, and the rest of our gang of course, wants to do,
Is that we will join the class games as usual.
Then cycle around the whole of sentosa =)
And then sun-tanning! =)))
I shall go post up the 2 chaps of the story that I made that one soon.
I wanna go swimming! =(
And ice-skating!
And watch lots of movies!
Here's my latest confession hwee boon roxzxz! =p
xHANISAHx
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1:37 AM
Church;